Randomness

A lot has been going on, not all of it good. I guess I’ll talk about the most daunting first, so here goes. My dad has been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. He has been having problems with balance and movement for a long time and finally decided to get it all checked out when Dad fell on the ski slopes this year and almost had to be life flighted to the hospital. Once people outside our family kept telling my parents how Dad didn’t seem right, they started to listen. That aside, he has the most wonderful PD doctor. She is located at the Elk’s Rehab Hospital here in Boise and specialized in movement disorders. She is a specialist in PD. They like her very much. On his first appointment, she gave him a prescription for some medication and a schedule for increasing the dosages. He says he feels better, but I think it’s still a little too soon to tell that much. He goes back for his next appointment the first week of June. It is really hard to see your dad, who has been so active his whole life, become so weak and not able to do all the things he has loved doing. He’s even contemplating selling the boat. For now, he can’t do anything that requires balance, which are all the activities he loves to do. He can’t water or snow ski, bike, or basically any other sport. I know he is getting very good care and his PD doctor says he will live a very long, full life as they manage his symptoms.

As many of you know, Brent and I are trying to get pregnant again. We have been trying for 8 months and it is taking its toll on me. It took us 3 years to get Emerson so going through that again is not my idea of a good time. The problem is that the longer I’m off the birth control pill, the more opportunity my endometriosis has to grow back, which in turn makes it harder to conceive. It is very frustrating and difficult for me to deal with at times. My body sends me mixed signals that you should only get when you are pregnant, which just creates this big emotional rollercoaster that I know I didn’t buy a ticket for. Well, I guess I did the minute we started trying to have a baby. It is getting to the point where I have to weigh my options, keep trying and risk the endometriosis coming back which brings with it lots of pain, or go back on the pill and not have anymore kids, thus stopping/slowing the endometrial growth. Having Emerson actually flushed out years of endometrial tissue, making cycles after giving birth so much less painful. It has been amazing not to be in so much pain during my cycle every month, so I have to make a choice. I just don’t want to be put in the position to make it.

Ok, so I know this has not been the most enjoyable post to read, but it feels like good therapy for me to write it all down, so there it is.